Serving with an Attitude of Discipling

As I read back through my journal at the words that litter the pages, I’m amazed at all the ups and downs, thoughts and reflections that have consumed my mind in just a few short months. We are complex beings. We were made to think, to engage, to love and to respond to all the magnificent things the Lord has created for us here on earth. We were created for purpose and meaning.

In the 50+ years of my life, I have been fortunate enough to have known salvation and a relationship with the Lord for most of that time. For as long as I can remember, I have had a desire to serve the church in some way, format, or capacity, and have done so. Most of us know that when we are called to do something that the Lord will provide a way and a means. But what does it really mean to have a “Servants Heart”? Just because I have the ability to do something doesn’t always mean that my “Heart” or attitude is where it needs to be.

Admittingly, I have always been very task oriented. For years, Joe and I have tackled many building projects at church and most of those turned out fine. But what I realized a couple of years ago is that my attitude was not right.  I wasn’t taking the time to enjoy the process, to thank God for allowing me to use my talents, nor was I including those around me that I had the potential to disciple and to teach. It was more about the “TASK”! I was missing the most important part…serving others and glorifying God by the gifts He has given me. It’s a shame that it took me so long to get that concept. A shame for myself in that I missed the blessing and a shame for others in that I lost those relationships.

In that conviction, my attitude is different moving forward. I recognize that God still has a plan for me, and I am still willing to work in whatever capacity He sees fit. I am in a different season of life, and I find it’s okay to let go of some things. I don’t have to say “yes” to everything that comes my way. There is value in living a life that is peaceful, focused and Christ centered. I have a choice and free will to decide for myself whom I will serve. My choice will always be Jesus Christ!

Colossians 3:23-24 Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward.